Open Book Rambling Journal Entry #141227:
The
end of 2011 through 2012 into 2013,
one of my darkest and deepest
dalliances with depression. Boozing, slicing, and attempting escapes.
Many friends departed, several stuck closer.
Through
2013 into 2014, a time of purging and stripping me down to the core.
Medical traumas and emotional roller coasters laid me bare and showed me
who is there.
End of 2013 into 2014 was a departure
from alcohol forcing me to experience life unnumbed. No more security
blanket to hide me from myself and my anxieties. Meds, friends, and a
kilt, have often helped.
Through 2014 has been a
refreshing renewal and time of discovery. Rediscovering and renewing old
relationships. Discovering and developing new friendships. Delving into
deeper devotion of the Divine. Rejecting and removing myself of ruinous
relations.
To name the many friends who have been
there would be nice, but just know that I greatly value you for not
giving up on me. To those of whom I have offended and grievously hurt, I
know I can never apologize deeply enough to remove the wounds I gave
you. Yes, I am sorry. To each of you one and all, I am so grateful to
you for the life you have shown me; and I am ever grateful to God my
Creator for all that has been, is, and will be.
Now let's get 2015 started in great anticipation! It will be my 49th after all. HUGS!
P.S.
Yes, I am on the inside amidst the rubble ruminating about a revolution
to revitalize and rebuild. If you while on the outside looking in see
something I am missing, please speak up. Please?
