So, thoughts have been ruminating. I enjoy life on my own.
I
had a blast on the road trip on my own. I have gone on vacations on my
own. I have gone to BSC CETI classes on my own. I go to church on my own
and sit alone. I have and do enjoy life on my own -- I have close to
fifty years of history to prove it. But, yet I get mostly ignored when I
ask for people to join with me on a fun event or such. What is wrong
with desiring for some companion in life to howdy me up with a "Hey
Kevin, we're heading to the river, come and join with us" or a "Kevin,
let's spend the afternoon together doing nothing"? Why is it always
expected for me to do the initiating, or inviting myself over, and never
receiving a two-way reciprocation in return? Or is that selfish to
think that friendships are supposed to be more than only one side doing
the vast majority of inviting themselves into events together? Not
receiving unexpected return invites, what is that supposed to do with
one's sense of self? If people want to hang out, why is it always along
the lines of "We should get together soon" without the fortitude to just
outright say, "Lunch, tomorrow at noon"? If life wants to continue
label me has unhappy because I long for people to want join in on my fun
life, then I guess I am unhappy. And I know that I am not.
